Diary of Dreams

Mother see, that all my life

I planted flowers to survive

And as they faded I stopped to speak

I painted flowers

and nobody knows why.....



No awakening, no lullaby

I only felt the need to try

To have the guts or the stupidity

To grab for stars, that I can't reach at all



Father see, that I have tried

To find that angel deep inside

That you once promised I would meet

And once again I ended in defeat



Even here I could feel your eyes

Heard your whispers and felt your eyes

Brother said "Come back to life"

I asked some friends

and nobody knew why .....



Nobody had ever seen

my flood of tears

I can't believe you found me here



It took some time to find these words

I wrote them down in hope that they might help

Watch me walk barefoot on glass

Insecure as only a newborn child can be



Others came to laugh at me

They pointed fingers as I could see

Believe me saying it's not the skin

It's the stranger living deep inside



Mother see, that all my life

I painted flowers to survive

And as they faded I stopped to paint

I fell asleep

and nobody knows why.....



Father see, that I have tried

To build a world with only me inside

Millions of flowers surround my bed

Now I still grab for stars and I can reach them all